Im sure you've heard that expression before. When I was younger, I would think to myself, quit whining. Whatever you put out there to the universe, you get back. Sometimes 10 fold. Well, today Ive officially become a hypocrit. I am using the old saying and it is ringing as true as possible. I musta given the universe a shit sandwich at some point cuz holy crap.
As you know, the twins turn one in less than a week, and saturday is their party. Now me being the brainiac I am, have decided to throw a birthday party for them. Because you know, they'll even understand what is going on. Ive decided to bake their cakes instead of buying them and not only will they be decorated, they will also be in fancy shapes yet to be determined (add that to my to do list). Now, amidst all of my cleaning preparation, which includes vaccuming the walls and ceilings because apparently the cobwebs didnt get my memo, the children have decided that 530 am is the best time to wake up! its been this way for the past few days. it wouldnt be so bad if I could manage to shut myself off at a decent hour at night, but no no no. My head doesn't hit the pillow till roughly midnight each night, and by the time i finally fall asleep, Thing One has woken up for a feed. Ok im not gonna continue rambling about the little precious sleep ive gotten, my hubby gets up at 330 am for work. Next subject....
This is the last week to get my taxes in. fabulous. Now although Im not personally doing them this year, I still have to dig up all the info. Well thats been fun!! WE MOVED. There are papers and receipts in almost every box in every room of the house. Why do i do this to myself? Shit Sandwich I tell ya!
WHAT the HELL do you get for 1 year old twins for their birthday? Last night I thought to myself, Im throwing them a party, what more do they want?
Seriously starting to think that that's good enough.
Benny has Occupation Therapy today. I think. I cant remember because I didnt write down the date. Its either today or tomorrow. I guess Ill just have to be home and ready for them to come at 3:00 today as well as 3:00 tomorrow. Hes doing so well with everything, although, I must admit. Ive been a bad mommy the past 3 weeks. We have barely worked on any of the exercises she gave us last time. Shit. Shes totally gonna know. And shes gonna think "why do i bother?". But shes got to see that Im drowning here right? Most days Im treading water, the occasional day Im swimming, but these past few, Ive been drowning. Time is moving too quickly and my energy level just isnt where it needs to be. It doesn't help that my diet has been a steady inhalation of coffee, cookies, leftover cake from last weekend and, im not gonna lie, the occasional squirt of pressurized whipped cream. But if I had more time Id be eating properly!!!
Well, now that Ive wasted 15 minutes writing this blog, Im going to go and have yet another coffee and cigarette and see if that will boost my energy level.
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