Well, it's been a while since I last posted so I thought I might drum up a ramble or two tonite. The kids birthday party last weekend was a smashing success! Emma LOVED all the attention, Benny was a bit indifferent but once everyone left and he was able to quietly inspect all of the new arrivals, he was happy. I will post some pics when I have the patience...
Lately, I have been thinking about taking on a couple of kids as a day care type thing. I know your all saying "ARE YOU CRAZY!!!??" because you have read my blogs and see that I am screaming for sleep, serenity, and peace and quiet. I guess I have just rolled over and submitted to the fact that that just is not in the cards for a long time to come. I hate going to work. HATE it. At first, in January, I LOVED IT. But now, I hate it. I feel guilty. I don't find pleasure in my work anymore. I have this nagging voice in the back of my head, as dark and twisted as it is, telling me that today could be the last day.... I wont go into much detail, but I guess after losing a child, your priorities change. I want to be home with them. I want to be home all the time with them. Even though there are moments when I feel like Im going bananas, at the end of the day, I taught my babe to say a new word, try a new food, or conquer a new milestone. And to me, that is worth more than all the tea in China. I have been trying to figure out how I can stay home and still earn money. Tupperware, you say? Nah.. not much of a salesman... Avon? Again.. not good at selling stuff. I love kids, I always have. I love getting down on their level and playing. I love teaching them, and reading to them, and watching their faces light up when they see something new. And if I'm already getting up at 6 am, and doing breakfast for 2 kids, planning activities for 2 kids, reading to two kids and so on, then why not get paid for it? I could legally only take on 2 full timers anyhow until I become fully licensed, and I have a minivan! It seems to make sense to me. And summer is the perfect time to start. Theres so many outdoor activities so it wont just be me and 4 little ones running around the house all day long. Plus we are getting a swingset in a week or two, which will be great!
Just in the beginning phases at the moment, but its a possibility.... and no.. I have not gone insane!!.. yet
Monday, May 10, 2010
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